From Your Mushy CEO

When I first started microdosing, I had no idea what I was doing.

There was no protocol handed to me. No guide walking me through it. No community of people who had been there before.

I was just a woman searching the internet for information that barely existed yet, piecing together fragments from corners of the internet that felt more underground than educational.

So I did what most people do when they find something that resonates but nobody teaches them how to use it.

I took it when I felt like I needed it.

A creative day here. A heavy day there. Whenever the mood called for it or whenever I was struggling and wanted relief.

And I felt things. I noticed things. But looking back now, I was only scratching the surface of what was actually available to me.

It was not until I really educated myself on protocols, on the actual science behind how microdosing works inside the body and brain over time, that the real transformation began.

And that is what I want to share with you today.

Not a sales pitch. Not a highlight reel.

A real, honest account of what consistent microdosing has looked like for me over time. The stages. The surprises. The uncomfortable moments. The shifts that changed my baseline forever.

Because I think too many people are missing the full picture.

And I do not want that for you.

WHY CONSISTENCY CHANGES EVERYTHING

Here is the thing nobody tells you.

Microdosing is not typically a tool you pick up when you need it and put down when you do not. Especially when you first start. 

That approach will give you some benefits. You might feel clearer on the days you take it. You might have a more creative afternoon or a more present evening. And there is nothing wrong with that.

But you will miss the deeper work entirely.

The real transformation that microdosing supports happens at the neurological level, and neurological change requires repetition. It requires time. It requires showing up consistently even when you do not feel like you need it, especially then.

Here is the science behind why.

Psilocybin, the active compound in mushrooms, works in part by increasing neuroplasticity, your brain’s ability to form new connections and break old ones. It also quiets the Default Mode Network, the part of your brain responsible for self-referential thinking, rumination, looping thoughts, and that relentless inner noise that so many of us have come to accept as just the way our mind works.

When you microdose consistently over time, you are not just getting a day of relief.

You are giving your nervous system repeated opportunities to practice new patterns.

To rehearse calm. To rehearse presence. To rehearse a different way of being.

And like any practice, the more you show up, the more it becomes yours.

THE FIRST THIRTY DAYS

When I finally honed in on my dose, the first things I noticed were subtle.

And I want to pause here for a moment, because finding your dose matters enormously.

For a while, I was microdosing too high. I would take it and just want to go lie in the grass, float through the afternoon, sit in meditation for hours. Which sounds beautiful, and it was. But it was not a microdose. That was something closer to a low macrodose. And it was taking me completely out of my day.

I noticed it because I just did not want to work. I did not want to be productive or focused. I wanted to be outside. I wanted to be still. I wanted to be in a meditative state. And that was the signal. That told me I had gone too high.

When I finally came down to the right amount for my body, a dose where I could function, focus, and still feel the subtle effects, everything changed.

The first things I noticed in that first month were quiet.

Lighter.

That was the word that kept coming to me.

I felt lighter.

The noise in my mind got quieter. The volume turned down on that constant background hum of thoughts, worries, plans, replays. And for someone who had lived with debilitating anxiety for most of her life, a brain that never stopped, that quietness was worth more than I could ever put into words.

But it also felt a little strange.

Because loud had been my normal for so long.

The quiet felt almost wrong. Like something was off. Like I was missing something. Because in a way, the noise had been familiar. It had been how I knew I was paying attention, staying on top of things, surviving.

And now it was just quieter.

That disorientation is real and I want to name it for you, because if you get there and it feels weird, that is not a bad sign. That is your nervous system encountering something new. That is your brain asking, wait, is it safe to be this calm?

The answer is yes.

THIRTY TO SIXTY DAYS

This is where things started to deepen for me.

More joy started to come online. More gratitude. A warmth I was not expecting.

Small things started to feel meaningful again. I noticed beauty more easily. I laughed more genuinely. Something that had been slightly flattened for years began to lift.

But I also want to be completely honest with you here, because I think the conversation around microdosing is often too polished. Too shiny. Too much highlight reel.

There were days in this range that were uncomfortable.

Really uncomfortable.

There were days I felt more irritated than usual. More raw. More aware of things that were bothering me beneath the surface. Frustrations I had been pushing down. Patterns in my relationships I had been avoiding looking at. Things I had been numbing out without realizing it.

And I had to learn that this was not a bad sign.

This was awareness coming online. Here. Look at this. You have been looking away for a long time. Now look.

Microdosing does not just open the doors to joy and clarity.

It opens doors.

And sometimes behind those doors is something you have been carrying for a very long time that is ready to be seen.

On those days, the most important thing I learned to do was stop.

Shut everything down. Put the phone down. Step away from the to-do list.

And just sit with it.

Not scroll past it. Not pour a glass of wine over it. Not call someone to distract from it.

Just sit with it.

Because here is what I have come to understand about the uncomfortable moments that microdosing can surface.

The things we keep distracting ourselves from are the things that stay stuck inside us.

We numb them, push them down, fill every quiet moment with noise so we never have to face them. And they stay. They calcify. They show up sideways in our relationships, our moods, our body tension, our reactions.

But when something brings them all the way to the surface and you can stay present with the discomfort, something happens.

It releases.

Not with force. Not dramatically.

It just loosens its grip. And then, slowly, it goes.

That is the work. And it is some of the most important work you will ever do.

SIXTY TO NINETY DAYS

By this point, the baseline had started to shift in ways I could feel but almost could not articulate.

More focus. Real, sustainable focus. Not the jittery kind that comes from caffeine or urgency. The kind that comes from a mind that is no longer at war with itself.

More presence.

I started being able to stay present with the people in front of me for longer. To sit in a conversation without half my brain already somewhere else. To be in my body, in the room, in the moment, in a way that felt natural rather than forced.

The practices I had been doing alongside microdosing, breathwork, journaling, quiet time, began to land differently too. Like the soil had been turned and now things could actually take root.

The patterns that used to loop started to loosen.

The reactions that used to feel automatic started to have a pause in them.

That pause is everything.

That pause is where you get to choose.

PAST NINETY DAYS

This is where integration lives.

Past the ninety day mark, something subtle but profound happened.

The changes stopped feeling like changes.

They just became who I was.

My new normal. My new baseline.

And then some things happened that I genuinely was not expecting.

Desires I had carried for years just quietly fell away.

Alcohol was one of them. I did not decide to quit. I did not white-knuckle through it. I just stopped wanting it. The desire simply was not there anymore. And when I looked for it, it was gone.

There were other things too. Patterns, pulls, old habits that had felt like part of me. They did not leave dramatically. They just dissolved, slowly, over time, as the thing beneath them got tended to.

I have taken breaks from microdosing over the years. Life gets full. Protocols shift. But I always come back. And every time I return to a consistent practice, the benefits come back with more depth than before.

Because the work does not disappear. It builds.

A SIMPLE PRACTICE THAT KEEPS ME CONSISTENT

I want to share something practical because I know life gets busy and even the things we love most can fall through the cracks.

I use a vitamin box.

Monday through Sunday. Already filled. Already waiting next to my other supplements each morning.

When microdosing is sitting right there as part of my daily rhythm, it becomes automatic. It stops being something I have to remember and starts being something I just do.

My current protocol is five days on, two days off. That has always felt like the right rhythm for my body. But I have tried other protocols over the years and different approaches work for different people. The most important thing is that you find what works for you and you stay with it.

And every single morning before I take it, I take a breath.

Sometimes just a second or two. Sometimes a full minute.

I set an intention.

I ask myself what I am working on, what I am moving toward, what I am ready to release.

And then I take it.

Because it is going in and it is working. And that work wants direction. Give it one.

WHAT I WANT YOU TO TAKE FROM THIS

You will not get the full depth of this practice by taking it when you feel bad. Or only when you want a creative day. Or only when life gets hard enough that you remember it is there.

You can do that. There is nothing wrong with that.

You will just miss most of what it is here to offer you.

The real gifts live inside consistency.

Inside the first thirty days when the noise begins to quiet and the lightness starts to arrive. Inside the thirty to sixty day range when joy comes back online and the uncomfortable things finally get to be seen. Inside the sixty to ninety day range when focus deepens and presence becomes natural. And past ninety, when the changes stop being changes and simply become who you are.

That is where the real magic lives.

Not in the days you take it when you need it.

In the days you take it because you trust the process. Because you understand that your nervous system is relearning something. Because you know that showing up consistently, even quietly, even subtly, is how the deepest shifts happen.

Consistency is not the unsexy part of microdosing.

It is the whole point.

A REFLECTION TO SIT WITH

Where in your life have you been waiting for something to work overnight, when what it was really asking for was your steady, patient presence?

XOOX Your Mushy CEO